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Friday, June 27, 2008 4:03 pm
perculiar dreams had always been a commonplace in my sleep since I was a child. they were not exceptionally freaky or happy dreams but very emotional. so much so that I often waking up feeling lost; sometimes, a dark cloud would loom over me all day.
I was awoken at 3 A.M. from an extremely bad dream that my boyfriend had decided to swap bodies with another guy, who appeared vaguely familiar but I dont know who is he. he had a rugged look (which I like!) but more pimples than my bf (hence I prefer my bf HAHAHA).
then I fell back to sleep again, the dream continued...
the "soul transfer" was done and my bf with-a-new-look turned up at my place. it all felt pretty odd because the guy I'm looking at isnt the one that I fell in love with! then he kissed me... EEWWW. terrible kisser? cant even do a peck-on-the-lips!? anw, he was awkwardly quiet and then before I know it, he was about to leave cos he wanted a lift from my cousin! HA. my bf would never do that before telling me that he's gonna go? actually, no one would ever do that when he's over at someone else's place! haa, odd... and how would you have felt if you were in my shoes?
after he had gone, I messaged Cassilda and asked her to pray over me... it was such a surreal experience that I can still imagine the confusion that I had in the dream!
so I got up at 7.30 A.M. and went to wash my face then a thought popped in my mind. last night's amplify session was about loving God with our MINDS which I find difficult because life had taught me to doubt. in this dream, my bf's soul loved me but there was a part of the dream that occured to me that his mind belonged to the new person! AH HA! so this is what it means to be in God's shoes.
the pain and helplessness of watching the love of His life change and distant... and this is what it's like to love God in the bgr way - an intimate relationship that older facils have spoken about. He's more than a best friend and a father that I've always imagined Him to be...
He's the more important love of my life! (:
thank You, Jesus... I feel so much better now.
