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Monday, December 08, 2008 6:06 pm
the real women;
a compelling epic.
eversince I was a little girl, sitting in conversations between my mum and my 2 aunties had ingrained a powerful influencial side of me that I've always occasionally had. it feels like a gift; that connects with girls and women around me.
I think I hear a calling.
this was what mama was like. a woman of faith and LOVE. someone who believes at all cost that God is her saviour and king. Lord of all that she had in life and death. accepting and FORGIVING. kind and compassionate.
life had robbed me of these things. I've been petty and unforgiving. and only a person who knows she has everything in God can give freely. YES; freely. I've finally found the door to my own heart. broken, but made whole by God. a joy and contentment that only God can bring. it came like the wind, STRONG yet subtle. the panorama of life seems different now. nothing is logical - but I'm not confused.
a few nights ago, I cried to mama. I wished she was near and looking back now, I know I was held in her embrace. something in me made me call out to her - welling emotions from the depths of me screamed to be with her. perhaps my deepest self knows that she had been the most powerful woman I had ever known. she would not judge or ask why I was crying but still knew what I really needed.
8.46AM, as I sat with my mom and auntie, I see mama living in our midst. a lost feeling that has found its way back into my heart. mama was like no other queen at home; and I had been blessed to be called into a life of benevolence.
the modern woman isnt a modern phenomenon. it existed long before we're told or even realised.
to my beloved jiejie,
you, too, have been called. 'cause I see it in your generosity and compassion for the woman in our family and the around you. (:
I'll be serving for YISS!
