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Tuesday, January 27, 2009 11:53 pm
the past hour or so until evening will be time alone for me.
(:
just the way I like it - read a book, listen to william fitzsimmons and... begin to like myself.
for a long time I've not enjoyed the company of myself. now it's back to the old days when I wish I had a home of my own. or even a room. my mum really gets too much for me to handle at times and missing Andrew takes up too much of my time as well.
DONT GET ME WRONG!
I love them both. alot.
however, everyone needs time to themselves and this is my time. Josie told us to pick our favourite time of the day to have Quiet Time with God but unfortunately, my mum's at home 24/7 and I dont feel comfortable 'cause I need it to be really really really quiet. like now.
if I could, I'd even sell every piece of furniture except my computer and my bed and have a new table and chair. yeap, it's one of those days that I need to "get out" and "leave it all behind". perhaps von would understand. (:
the Lunar New Year weekend was awesome only because Andrew booked out and we got to spend some quality time together. I'm so glad he suggested to go to the movies 'cause it gave me strength to pull through the coming 2 weeks when he's gonna be away for field camp.
we heard lotsa stories abt field camps over the weekend and I must say, some of them were not encouraging at all. maybe it's a guy-thing, but I'm glad I dont have to hear what they've said and still go through it. frankly, I might've already broken down before booking in. nonetheless, Andrew's stronger than I thought. he's doing well, I suppose? unless he's just been keeping everything to himself; I wont be surprised. still, I'll keep praying for his safety and well-being.
I want a good piece of cake to eat NOW.
